I bled...

i dunno what the hell came over me last night. i was going insane all
of a sudden. madness took over me. insanity devoured all that i could
think of. darkness flooded my eyes. i felt my eyes soak with tears,
burning my pupils with warmth of that of blood. i found a silver object
before me.i took it. cold on my flesh. sharp. it dug deep into my
veins. i started motioning it horizontally onto my wrists. what an
ecstatic feeling i felt. a sensation so heavenly yet so scorching. then
my thoughts returned to me. i opened my eyes. i saw blood flowing out
like a waterfall. what a wonderfully horrific sight to remember.

forgive me anyone, everyone for punishing myself. i deserve to be for all that i've done.



i'm addicted to pain. hurting is my drug. my ecstasy. my love.

much love and hate
- d e m -