Sorrow

ysterday was one of the saddest, most terrible days i ever had [well top 20 lah] i dunno how the hell to explain and i'm so damn sick of trying to explain what happened. all i can say i was like a ticking time-bomb smlm and i just went off so unfortunately at the wrong time, at the wrong person and for the wrong reasons. how sad is that? =( i didn't misscall him almost the whole day yesterday. in the afternoon, i kept rejecting his calls. then at night, langsung nada ku balas his misscalls or messages. ntah arah sapa jua aku marah ane? ada jua arah myself, ada jua arah my angel. but i don't wanna be mad at him. i wanna be mad at me cause it's all my fucking freaking fault. i don't wanna say what was this all about neither do i wanna try to explain it. it's just killing me at the moment. but he sent me a testimonial [so sweet] arah friendster yesterday. aww.

NuTtY, Tuesday, February 08, 2005:
Hello syg~lama dah was nda buat testi
untuk syG~AnyWay~sorrY About
TodAy...Was LambAt Btau Sal Was
sbenarnya kana bawa kBSB tadi Kali
Was Nda mau Ikut Taus Lah Was MinTA
Antar K Seria...Was Salah baca Msg
Syg tadi Wah...KIr was mc1x MUn jumpa
Umah Gee~udah was Baca Kali k2 Baru
tah was Paham~SowEee k...i Really99x
sorry~make u angry~i dont meant to do it
to u!!!!!plz Forgive me !!!Ani Masih wah
Was Rasa SalAh...D mc kana rejet mana
kan makin susah hati....Uat Masa
Ani..Syg tau kan what happen to Was
Masa Ari ahad ah...Makin Jarang lah
Was Kana Bagi Duit ni...Bah Mun Was
nDa Jadi Tido Bsb esok Tani jmpa ari 4 k!!!
sorry again! for make fault make u angry
today~I really love u n really mizz u my
aujieEeEEe....Wndu beravis lah!!sorry
again and again~!!!love u my Angel of
darkness!!!mwahZzZZz *309*1510*

yea. kinda gagas kle time ya typing or maybe too mad or sumthing smpai catue ah ya taip. hehe. i dunno la.

but i met him jux now *jumping up and down like a bunny* it was like *swish* smooth. as if nothing happened yesterday. it wasn't awkward. not strange. nothing. cam biasa sha. aww. i love him so damn frigging much. love you so much angel, if you're reading this.

much lOve + hate,
- d e m -